20.12.06

Paloma Negra.






She lifted up the hem of her veil and wiped a tear of his cheek. He looked up at her and felt like dissolving in the copious drapes of the black muslin niqab she always wears outside the house. He remembered them: warm, welcoming, smelling of fresh lavender, faint perfume… a home to any lost soul. He buried his face in her drapes, and took in her womanly fragrance… a thousand little scents telling the story of a nation… the history, the culture, the eloquence of a civilization that never faded in his heart.
She lifted up the white drape covering her face below the eyes, the only white in her whole attire, and gave him a gentle kiss on his lips…
He rested his head on her lap. She caressed his hair so tenderly as if her child’s. She moved her hand down his neck… his side… his waist… She slid her hand under his pants, and then in one swift motion, as if practiced all her life, drew his knife and plunged it in his throat. She didn’t slit his throat, just plunged the knife in it… he pulled away. tried to stand, but instead he dropped to his knees… in this kneeling position in front of her, he stared at her in pain, in shock, in disgust, and in grief…
She gathered the folds of her skirts… and flew away through the park, like the black dove she is… leaving him by some bench gasping for air, folded on himself, like the fetus he is… covered with blood… with mud… convulsing by the last spasms of life… of death.
By the gate of the park, perched on the high metal grills, she looked down toward that bench, uncovered her mouth, blew him a kiss and flew away…

“Paloma negra…” he uttered in his distinct sevillanos southern accent, in choking staccato she barely heard in her flight “¿paloma negra, dónde, dónde andarás?”

She replied in her clear translucent Arabic “Touhyee iza katalatte…”


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9.12.06

Life in a plane…


A circle with its center.
A dot…
Not egocentric… just minimal. an ordinary dot.

A triangle with its three vertices.
Equidistant…
Equilateral…
And as such they will always stay…

Two parallel lines that have never met.
Never…

A sine.
A cosine.
Two functions that always meet… periodically.
Always…
Occasionally. Like two regulars. Like two lovers…

6.12.06

Right below their balcony…


- things are fine habibeh. we just don’t go out at night.
- but they killed someone.
- oh, people die every day.

Like running hot water on your head during a chilly winter night. yes, just like that… your nerves are soothed beyond any perception. your limbs are weak. the room is dark and you collapse at the bottom of the tub.

During times like these, people usually have their sense of identify heightened… or perceptible at least. they feel it stronger than their sense of life.
They parade it… dark. bold. tender. sugary. fanatic. traditional. liberal… they dance to its rhythm on the street… right below their balcony… they shout it with colors. black. green. orange. yellow… white?
I have nothing of it. no identity. only my pathetic little flyer… from a protest against a war… sneering at me “idiot”, without any reservations.
How far away I am… from that small flyer pleading for justice… from screaming slogans commanding power… unity… identity…
How much did I miss? How many theses did I read… analyzing… speculating… or at least trying to rationalize what would happen…
and then I coldly understand that they are so unfazed by someone dying… right below their balcony… as if no time has passed… nothing changed, and people are still dying every day…